Ummm . I've got nothing .

"Bitches bitches, bitches everywhere."

Hey, good day to all of you. I'm updating another entry again.

Recently I started writing again (what else is there to do when you're not doing anything), being held back is what gets the idea flowing. But progress is still in a turtle-speed slow. Umm, moving on.

Recently I noticed something that had changed within me, that frequent feeling of hopelessness and helplessness, that feeling of energy loss, my lack of interest in daily activities, at socializing, insomnia, and the list goes on. Lots of the time I switched from the calm and happy side to the extremely depressed side. Honestly I don't feel sad, nor that I feel anger, it is just that feeling of emptiness, lifeless. Tell me, ain't all the listed above a sign of depression? Could it be possible that I am going through depression?

When I reconsider it all, it's not impossible I'm facing depression. With all the expectations thrown at me, with all those weight I felt on my shoulders, with all the failures, with every disappointments that came with it. Holding everything in, not letting anyone in. I would self-pat myself for holding it together for so long, but seriously everything makes me cry nowadays. Speaking of crying, I actually cried when he (my dear) sang me a song a few weeks ago. I mean I laughed at first, but uncontrollably I broke down, ugh !

*sighs*

Yet again, it could be possible too that it is just me over thinking the small things.




Hmmm...

Don't think I could hold on any longer this minute tho.