Love Letter ?

Hey I know this is cheesy, but please don't judge.

Here goes :-

He when smiles make me smile,
He who could give me butterflies,
He with one simple good morning could make my day brighter,
And every time I see him,
It's like falling in love all over again.

He's not romantic but he is sweet in his very own way,
He's not clingy but he respects me,
He is sometimes rough but always soft talking to me,
He makes me feel special when he treats me differently from his peers,
Never he said words that offends me,
But always words that flatters me,
Even as friends he could give me a sense of security,
What's best is that I believe he brings out the best in me.

He may not know but,
I truly appreciate how he once made me feel protected,
I appreciate the times when he was there when I thought nobody was,
I appreciate him for once being that wonderful listener of mine,
to take all my complaints, my tantrums, my hurts and disappointments,
I appreciate it all very much for he was once the only person I could express myself wholly,
But what I appreciate most is his very presence by my side at the moment,
In my life.

It's not a mere crush,
I fall in love, over and over,
And he was different.
He gave me a feeling nobody could,
Feelings indescribable with just words.

I adore him that much that I find myself constantly eager to meet him,

And because he is that special to me,
All the tears, memories and pain I once bared,
The time wasted waiting and hoping,
It all seems worth it.
It was painful then, but every thing is worth cherishing.

It upsets me sometimes, most of the time,
That I'm not courageous enough,
not confident enough at times,
I'm afraid of commitments.
I'm afraid of loosing this special bond between us.
It hurts me to know that I may had hurt him.

But,
I wanted to leave things as it be for the moment,
I believe that we don't have to be a couple to love each other,
I loved him, and I will always care for him.
If we're meant to be, we're bound to be together in the end.

It is just a cruel twist, bad timing of two people,
making what could have happen couldn't.
I'm with another guy at present,
A relationship where both family are fond and looking forward to,
I'm not sure how it'll go, how good it's gonna be,
Everything was a rush and before I knew it I've a commitment to hold.

However God has His way in everything,
so I'll believe only in Him.

*okay honestly I really really REALLY regret sending him this, he should never even be reading this, I just made myself pretty much very vulnerable in his eyes, but hey thanks to someone (a friend of mine), after a night full of chits and chats and tears and all that emotions I've been holding in for so long exploded, yeah it came flowing. 

 The fact that I sent him this text made me pretty embarrassed, I mean I literally bang my head the next day, it was like I was drunk or high at the moment to actually send this cheesy text, boo you dear friend for making me send this text (but I'll always love you :) )

 **I know some people might already labelled me as a cheater or a two-timer or a player and such. But I did none, yes he knows about my relationship and yes he knows I loved him more. But I didn't plan to drag it, I wouldn't expect him to wait, think I hurt him enough, he deserves better (and prettier, ha-ha). For the time being I'm trying, to lose that feeling a bit, give space to the new guy. I hope that when if possibly he finds someone (which I'm secretly hoping not), he'd be happy. Sounds cliche? But I mean it, honest. If he's happy then I'm happy. (tho I'm not the reason :(  ). Always be cherished in my heart.

#Love4107