Let's Start afresh . ^^

Last week for 3 days , sa pegi tuaran ne , Tkwndo tournament . :) lamaa sgt da teda ikut kejohanan , so memang penaatt sangat2 la , tapi enjoy la juga , bole jumpa sama geng2 tkwndo lain dari tempat2 lain . i miss them already . Cuma kali ne sa p kjohanan , aihh ada awkward sket la jga , sbab ehem someone pn ikut jga kan . Spanjang tournament ne kena sakatttt saja bh , eey apa ne . Almost a year ready bh since our breakup tu. Hrap dia ndak mara saja laa , gpun kita skang ne kawan2 saja punn . From this tournament, though all the feelings bloomed again , haha eh masii sangkut masii sayang rupanya , tp nda la ba jga mw hrap apa2 , for me it's better like this .

It's best that i focus on who's by my side now . Though far sangat dari dia tu , dduk saaaana terengganu keja . Tapi ok la, cousin jauh jgak so family mmang knal mmang ok. Nda sangka juga kan, family dari dulu hanya skadar main2 kc pasang2 both of us , lama2 bbtul jd together . We started chatting 2 weeks ago , honestly i really don't know much about him and the same goes to him , kenal skadar kenal gtu jak . Chat pun jarang2 sbab dia keja da ne . But we made a promise , so i'll try my best keeping it . Rasa b'salah la juga coz i janji sama dia even when i haven't gotten over my previous , hermmm cuma takut sejarah berulang cam dulu lg kan , insecurities . I like him, but is it really love , is our feeling mutual , itu yg slalu jd persoalan dia . But then if we were to talk about marriage or a stable relationship, love is not the main matter, mutual respect is , so sa follow the flow of our relationship saja ne . Our relationship takat ne okayy la , masi awkward la sama dia ahahaa . He's 6 years older but i don't mind at all , sbab sa kan sukaa llaki matang haha . He may not be perfect , he may not have all the qualities i like , but i'll try my best . (p/s : this guy i'm talking bout, he's my first love. :) )

Eh bila cakap org ne ikut taekwndo jga tau. Ahahaa come to think of it, all the guys i've been with are all involve in taekwon-do, coincidence ?

I've gotten over my first in a short time because he hurt me too much , but this time it's different . It hurts to say this but i'm not over you yet , I still miss you , I still love you . I just hope that time will help me let all the feelings pass , supayaa i can properly , love only one .

Dear first love, i hope you trust me k .
May God bless you, our family, my ex and to everyone else i adore.
^^