Relationships can wait ..

seriously it's hard for me to keep on with this blogging stuff
when  i don't even have the privacy to blog .. *sighs*|

anyway , two things happened lately ..

number one ,
my ex , as expected came back to me
asking to be in a relationship again ..
well dude i'm soo thrilled to tell you how much i moved on since
the last time you cheated on me ..
look at me now bro , totally happy single ~~

okay the next thing is ,
kind of hurt but me myself don't get or see
what's wrong with me and this new friend of mine ..
i don't see where i stand in his life ..
for a while the way he texted me is as if i'm someone important
( and i even start trusting him)
then the next minute completely ignored me ..
well it hurts ..

really hate the feeling of being ignored ,
it brings way back to the past where my friends once isolate me in school ..
yes right now my friends and i had gotten better ,
but hey no matter how much i smile at the outside,
they'll never know what they did had left a scar inside..
it's hard to trust people nowadays ..
friends you trust ends up backstabbing you ,
guys who sugar coat everything they say ..

anyway , i think for now ,
what's best is to focus on my studies first ,
relationships can wait ,
i don't want to rush into one ,
besides if waiting for years would lead me to my Mr. Right ,
then what's wrong with being single now ..