Finally .. :)

Yess finally , my very own laptop ..!! :D
hipp hipp hoooraayyyy ..!

haha really happy , thanks to my aunt for this wonderful gift ..
having a laptop would really be helpful considering
that i am now a pre-U student ..
with all the assignments , presentation and all ..
*sighs*

anyway i'm still very grateful for this gift ,
coz yala me n my family would really think twice
in purchasing something this expensive ..

credits to my aunt ,
love you soo much ..!

p/s : i love u too mister C .. ;)

It's memories that kills ..

In a few more days,
i'm gonna be a school girl again (back to school people)
this time ima put a hundred percent on my studies ..

lately we texted (my ex) ,
and yes the feeling wasn't all the same as it used to ..
care ? yes . adore ? yes . Love ? hrmm i'm not sure ..
we talk and talked but he mention a lot of our past ..
painful ones ..
don't feel like blogging the story bout how he cheated on me ..

flashbacks of what we had ,
good ones bad ones ,
everything replayed in my head ..
darn it hurts .. i miss you , i miss us ..
but i know and i accept ,
there is no way we could go back to the way we used to be ..

one thing for sure , there's always that one special spot for you in my heart,
cause you'd filled a space no one could ..
take care dear .. 

Relationships can wait ..

seriously it's hard for me to keep on with this blogging stuff
when  i don't even have the privacy to blog .. *sighs*|

anyway , two things happened lately ..

number one ,
my ex , as expected came back to me
asking to be in a relationship again ..
well dude i'm soo thrilled to tell you how much i moved on since
the last time you cheated on me ..
look at me now bro , totally happy single ~~

okay the next thing is ,
kind of hurt but me myself don't get or see
what's wrong with me and this new friend of mine ..
i don't see where i stand in his life ..
for a while the way he texted me is as if i'm someone important
( and i even start trusting him)
then the next minute completely ignored me ..
well it hurts ..

really hate the feeling of being ignored ,
it brings way back to the past where my friends once isolate me in school ..
yes right now my friends and i had gotten better ,
but hey no matter how much i smile at the outside,
they'll never know what they did had left a scar inside..
it's hard to trust people nowadays ..
friends you trust ends up backstabbing you ,
guys who sugar coat everything they say ..

anyway , i think for now ,
what's best is to focus on my studies first ,
relationships can wait ,
i don't want to rush into one ,
besides if waiting for years would lead me to my Mr. Right ,
then what's wrong with being single now ..